Just Another Manic Monday: Worrying about the worries

Monday, 29 September 2014

Hello everyone! It's Monday (well nearly over Monday) and I can't say that I have ever been more excited and disappointed in the day! For today, after a whole four months off I returned to university for my third and final year and I was immediately thrust into a world of experimental data, the human psyche and the real wonder of why we behave the way we do. I was excited to return, for this summer has been a summer of crazy, uncertainty and
fear and I was hoping that the return to university would bring me peace. I hoped once I was back that all my problems would be solved and that psychology was the certainty that I have been searching for my whole summer. I used to love studying because it helped to keep me busy, free of worries and the stresses of everyday life. If I ever had a problem in my personal life I would turn to the books and immediately forget everything that was troubling me to begin with. Psychologists will say that I use this as a way of avoiding a situation. And maybe they're right. But for me it was my way of coping. Today I went to university and sat in my lecture with the hope that engrossing myself in work again would remove all memories of worries. But no matter how hard I tried I couldn't concentrate on the topic at hand, all that went through my head was worries and worrying about the worries. What happens when work isn't there for me to throw myself at? What happens when work stops working? Am I now supposed to try to find a new coping mechanism to avoid my issues?What happens when I no longer have a way to avoid the stress and am forced to face the issue at hand. Would I crumble and break down? Maybe I would. But at least I'd know that the issue was identified and I could now look to fixing or improving the situation. What I'm trying to say is, don't push things away and don't throw yourself in to a task just to avoid thinking about it. Maybe some of you reading this post are going through a tough break and are avoiding the issue. Face it head on! Because no matter what you do it's not going away, I learnt that today. I am going to try my best to make an effort to deal with my issues regardless of how scared I am, because leaving it will only make it fester and bleed out very painfully!

Be brave, you have it in you.

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