Recently I have been beating myself up about my lack of achievement and progression in my life. I have been struggling with my procrastination within blogging and the constant tumbleweeds that have been sweeping across my inbox for the past few months. I have been punishing myself, calling myself negative terms like "stupid, weak, boring and useless" because when I look on social media, I feel like just about everyone and their grandma is achieving something great. And yet, here I am, hating my job, hating my body and hating who I am, because I feel like I'm not achieving all of the things I want to do, but feel like I just don't have the time or mental capacity for!
To be completely honest, I don't really know what has happened, but setting and achieving goals, has become a lot more of a challenging task than what it once was when I was a youngster and would set goals to achieve good grades. I don't know whether it's my declining lack of self-esteem or the fact that physically I'm just not what I used to be (Gosh I sound like such an old lady when I say that!). Mentally and physically I've become a lot weaker, and I guess I just don't have the energy or speed to attack and achieve my goals as fast and fiery as I used to. And now I am drowning myself in self-defeat and cognitions of slimy comparison.
And so I began to ponder. I started to reflect on the previous year and actually was able to devise a list of smaller goals I had achieved in the traumatic year that was 2016 (which is saying something, because 2016 imo was definitely cursed!). I realised that I had managed to go on two dates with TWO GUYS (heck of an achievement for an introvert like moi), taken on more psychological responsibility at work (which is essential for my future plans to becoming a psychologist) and have become more mindful and happier within my every day life.
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PINAFORE (IN BLACK)- BOOHOO | SUNGLASSES - ASOS | WHITE ROLL NECK - BOOHOO | CHAIN - H&M | BERET (SIMILAR)- ASOS | BOOTS (SIMILAR) - NEW LOOK
Do you Beat yourself up about not achieving your goals? Did you like this look?